It's That Time Of The Year When I Reflect On What the Past 365 Days Have Given Me, And Start Planning for the Next Lot.
Firstly, I would like to apologise for the complete radio silence - December was supposed to be a month filled with blog posts, videos, the works. But life got in the way, as it sometimes does. Finally I have my first morning off, with no work, tasks or social plans and to be honest, I couldn't be happier. Working in retail over Christmas, I have learnt that 'me time' simply doesn't exist, because every spare minute you have is filled with family catchups or dinners with friends. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining - those two things are my favourite things to do. But I have definitely realised how much I took time to myself for granted over the past year. I have tried to fit as many 'to-do' tasks into last night and this morning that I have discovered a whole new level of personal efficiency. But the one thing I've learnt this December is that this space, right here, is my happy place. Nothing makes me happier than whipping up a blog post, filming a video or taking photos. Even the planning process brings me joy. The other night I lost it a little because I realised I hadn't sat down and written a blog post that was about my opinion and my life for god knows how long - and I'm finally doing it. Sorry for the very long introduction, but it has been a while and I need to spill my thoughts onto the screen.
At the very beginning of 2017, I wrote a post called '365'. It was my second ever post here on the blog, and after re-reading it this morning, I discovered two things. Firstly, I was surprised at how good my writing was (without tooting my own horn), I think I have somewhat gone down-hill in the level of care and effort that I put into the actual words of my posts, and thus, I have set myself my first new years resolution - to craft each post like it is the first post I've ever written. Secondly, I was reasonably happy with how I stuck to my resolution or 'mantra' as such. Instead of setting goals, I simply wanted 2017 to be the best it could be, without specific targets. My aim was to embrace each day, and actually stick to it, or in better words, follow this principle;
"If you are depressed, you are living in the Past. If you are anxious, living in the future. If you are at peace you are living in the moment."
I can, in total honesty, say that I did just that. 2017 has by far been the best year of my life so far. When I think back on all of the wonderful memories I've made, the friendships that I have formed, the ones that have strengthened, and the things that I have achieved, I couldn't be happier or prouder with myself. And yes, it is OK to be proud of yourself - in fact, I am an advocate of tooting your own horn, because sometimes, the only approval or praise you need is from you, and only you.
This year, I enjoyed my studies, and for the first time ever, finally lifted the pressure off myself to 'do well'. I ended up doing just as well as I previously had, without pushing myself to do it, if that makes any sense at all. My stress-less approach to uni actually increased my productivity, passion and time management, without the added angst.
Socially, I think I can say with confidence that my friendships have never been stronger and less drama filled, no matter how near or far away my friends are. If you are one of those closest to me reading this (you know who you are) thank you so much for supporting me this year, especially with all of this blog stuff. I've always had your honest opinions and help to rely on, and without many of you this blog would look boring as (special shout out to my photographers). 2017, my final year as a teenager, has been a year of growing up, and it really reflects in the strength of my friendships.
This year has been filled with so many amazing memories, to name a few - Falls Festival, Down South Trips, Groovin' the Moo, Sydney Holiday's with both my family and Zane, family visits from over East, and of course my first ever 'bloggers trip' to Melbourne with my mum for Bupa Australia. Which leads me to my next point.
On Sunday, it'll be the blogs' first birthday. I honestly could not have done it without you guys, the readers, the supporters. I have many, many goals for this website in 2018, it's only going to get bigger and better from here. I was gifted a Canon G7X and I've even bought myself a bullet journal to reach ultimate blogger level, so things are about to get real serious up in here. Watch this space. But for now, I'll see you next year!
All my love,