Hey, it’s been a while. I think you're due for an update. Whoever is reading this.
It is officially the first day of semester break for my fellow uni-goers and I here in Perth. And I am feeling ever so slightly rundown. You’d think that after these past weeks of study, and for once, I actually did spend endless days in the library, that I would be running wild, lapping up the freedom and less stressful days to come for the next six weeks of winter. But for some reason, I am not feeling as cheery as I would have expected.
In an age of constant self promotion, that requires the immediate approval of others via likes, views, and comments, sometimes I feel myself getting slightly lost in the thick of it all. Lately, I have been continuously questioning myself, it’s like my mind never stops and I am constantly in conversation with my own self within my brain. It’s almost like an episode of Q&A is going on in my head. I wouldn’t necessarily call this questioning self-doubt, because that’s not what it is. I like to think that I am actually a reasonably confident person who just doesn’t give a damn about what anyone else thinks. Particularly being in the ‘blogging sphere’ I am putting myself fully out there for everyone and anyone to see. Given, I don’t 100% show my full personality to everyone on any of my social media platforms - that is reserved for those close enough to handle my awkward breakouts of bad dancing, weird accents for no real reason and all round outgoingness. I don’t hide this from my online presence for the sake of embarrassment - I purely do it because I truly believe that social media is never telling the whole truth, and I am Ok with that, because I can acknowledge it. I think you should be able to save a little something for your close loved ones, that you don’t show absolutely everyone else, because the whole point of having those close ones is so that you have people that you can truly be yourself around, and vice versa for them. Otherwise we’d probably all go insane if we only had ourselves and a mirror to dance in front of day after day.